Where is he???

I thought i can be easy with him...
But i'm not...
May be coz i knew...
He wont 2 be a part of my life so i dun have 2 tell him anything...

God,
I need some1 who will be my partner of the rest of my life...
Some1 who can share everything with me...
I really need it...
specially rite now, when i have 2 make big decision for my life...

Where is he, God???

Gw terharu

Suddenly...ada masalah besar in my company...we r in d'big trouble...coz perusahaan mo ditutup akhir desember ini. Emang sih...boss gw dah blng ma gw kalo dia bakal keep me with him but...gw betul2 bingung...mood gw dah ilang, loyalitas jg ga tauk kemana...coz bln kemaren aja gaji gw hanya dikasih 1000 doang...setengahnya dari gaji gw juga nggak...dan lg sekarang ada gosip kalo gaji bulan ini ga tauk kapan keluarnya...mampus gw...dan satu lg masalah...krn gosip ga dpt gaji bln dpn, temen serumah gw nanyain soal uang untuk kontrak rumah (krn selama ini boss gw yg bayar, tp krn keadaan ini, dia nanyain gw...??) padahal skrg ini uang gw tinggal beberapa ratus doang, di bank pun hanya tinggal sratus lima puluh coz gw baru balik indo so gw bawa balik semua duit gw...mampus kan?????
I was chatting with my sis this morning...
Gw cerita ttg keadaan gw dan dia blng :"ya udah balik aja kesini atuh...lagian mungkin bentar lg juga dipecat..." huahaha.....dasar adik gw gila...
tp trs gw blng :"gimana mo balik duit buat ongkos juga kaga ada...???"
dia nanya :"Berapa ongkosnya? 1 juta cukup ga??"
Gw baru sadar...dia care ma gw...dia mo ngasih duit untuk ongkos gw balik padahal gw tauk...uang segitu dia simpen2 untuk hal2 emergency...asli bgt...i wanna cry...nyesek ngedengernya...gw terharu...kalo selama ini mungkin mereka hidup terpisah dengan gw tp tetep...mereka sayang gw dgn tulus...with sincere...gw bahkan ga kenal perkataan itu disini...!!!

God, what i have to do now??? I really need u 2 show me the way....!!!

Jealousy???

Its about jealousy...
is it wrong if we have that feeling?
Jealouse not just for someone U love but for someone U like too, rite??
Even when Cinta, my bestfren have a new frens in the new office...
I got jealous too...I was afraid, Im not the bestfren for her anymore...even thats a silly thought...but yeah...thats true.
Sometime...I want someone get jealous about me also...
Crazy, rite???
but yeah...may be coz I juz want 2 feel...be needed...
But this morning i juz found out that someone who be with me for now, doesn't have that feeling...
dun talk about luv...coz there's no luv between us...
At least...feeling that im belong to him for now...but i dun see it at him...
Mean...Im not important thing for him...

What I have to do...thats juz a risk coz i took this way...juz take it!

Dun treat me so well...

Akhirnya gw merasa bener2 nyaman disamping seseorang...
Dia begitu sempurna...
Dun talk 'bout fisik coz...
fisik dia betul2 sempurna di mata gw...
Bentuk muka yg bener2 cowok, walopun ditutupin dg jenggotnya yg super panjang...sampe temen gw blng dia kaya teroris...huahahaha...tp akhirnya dia rela dipotong pendekan atas permintaan gw, padahal waktu nyokap dia nyuruh...ga dihiraukan...
Mata yg cantik dan dalam...bulu mata yg lentik tp ga panjang...cukup untuk ukuran cowok...
Bulu alis yg hitam dan tebal...
Hidung yg tinggi walo ujungnya dikit agak panjang...tapi tetep sempurna untuk gw...
Bibir yg sesuai bgt untuk bentuk wajahnya...& juga enak bgt huahaha...
Tinggi badan yg tinggi walo gak setinggi my previous bf tp potongan badan dia betul2 cantik dan sempurna dimata gw...apalagi kalo lg pake boxer pant...dan yg terpenting...gw jatuh cinta ma tato di lengan atas dia yg menjulur mpe ke punggung...betul2 tato yg sempurna...

Sebelumnya...gw selalu ngeharepin cowok gw treat me like what i want...
Dan for God shake...
Dia membuat mimpi2 gw jadi nyata...cara2 dia memperlakukan gw begitu sempurna...
Dia membuat gw tersanjung...membuat kekurangan gw mjadi kelebihan dimata dia...
Dan ga ada seorangpun yg memperlakukan gw sebaik dia...
Tapi Tuhan tauk...gw tauk...dan dia tauk...
Dia ga akan berada disisi gw selamanya...

If he treat me so well...I dunno what will happen with me if he's not here anymore... So plz...Dun treat me so well...!!!

it's empty

I dunno what happen with me...
I just feel empty...
I have someone to talk to & to share with...but
still...
it's empty...

It is what it is...

Mr.Nice guy know now...that Rain is me...
i told him just want he know that he hurt me for what he did...
Last week he called me to asked me to stay & said...he is just for me...
after he disappear for long time...

I was melting again...but...U did the same mistake...
I really dunno u now...or I never know u even...

Juventus vs Inter Milan

after all...finally I watched Juventus match with other big club like inter milan...
Been 3 years never watch Juventus or football like lastnite...except world cup ofcourse...
When i saw the players of Juventus...
Gosh...mostly i dunno them...but Thanks God...Buffon & Ale' still there...

The matched goes so hard for Juventus coz...Inter Milan have many many gud players...
Like Luis Figo, I always like the way he played...
Inter Milan have very gud defender like Walter samuel, He was the best defender in the very first time he came to Lega Calcio & I guess still now...with his partner in Roma b4, Chivu...made InterMilan very strong...But I hate Zlatan Ibrahimovic, He was juventus player...I never like him even when he played for juventus...for me He is just "the yudas".
I know, Zambrotta & Cannavaro left Juventus also but they played for other compatition not Lega Calcio...!!
In the first round, Inter made score with Julio Cruz...Legratoglie....where r u??? Huh!!! He couldn't stop him & Buffon couldn't save it...I saw...Buffon as keeper also as center back coz center back of juve is useless...Buffon saved many time...Oh yes...He's still best Keeper ever...& He's always my saviour!!! ;)
Second round, Raneiri changed Ale' with Camonaresi (I like the way he tied his hair ;))...& Changed Nedved with Iaquinto...& they made score...iaquinto passing ball to camonaresi who made score for juventus...Huraaay....
Even the last scored is 1-1 but at least Juventus still have spirit of winner like Juventus before...fight till the end...

PS: Beware for Buffon...dun go to other club like zlatan...or U will be "the biggest yudas for me"...!!!