the way he looked at me

Lastnite
I asked him about his plan 4 us...
I saw his eyes while he talked
n his eyes...not looking at me
but looking at around
His eyes should be looking at me deeply to convince me
but
his eyes didn't convince me at all
n i was deeply sad about that
...
Eyes are the window to the heart
isn't it?
...
the way he looked at me...
it's not what i expected...
...
I do
I feel the love from U everytime u were around me
but
what happen with ur eyes???
n that eyes...keep dancing in my mind!!!
...
God,
U're the only one who know what happen rite now & will happen...
pls show me the way...
U know...how i feel about him...
If he is for me...
convince me with ur way...
If he isn't for me...
show me the way what i have to do...
bcoz nobody can help me except U...


PS: If i say I LOVE U, is it worth for u?

Apa yg harus gw percaya???

Ketika gw ngerasa gw nemuin s'seorang yg begitu peduli ma gw, begitu m'cintai gw...(coz i feel it)
Tapi mengapa???
Sahabat yg paling dekat dg gw blng "he's not like what u thought".
Dia blng gw buta, gw ga ngeliat apa yg dia liat...
Tuhan,
kalo semua yg dia buat untuk gw semuanya adalah boong...
Lalu apa yg harus gw percaya lagi???
Dan kenapa sahabat gw yg walopun ga pernah sekalipun ketemu ma cowo gw, tp 99,8% dia yakin kalo cowok yg selama ini be with me...bermain sandiwara dan punya skenario sendiri...bahwa cepat ato lambat dia akan ninggalin gw???
Kenapa dia begitu yakin???
Apa yg sahabat gw liat tapi ga gw liat??
Bagaimana kalo yg dia pikir ttg cowo gw itu betul???
Apa yg harus gw buat???
& Bagaimana kalo yg dia pikir itu salah???
Haruskan gw ngorbanin cinta yg ga mungkin gw dapet lg hanya karena pikiran bodoh dari temen terdekat gw???
Tuhan...
APa yg harus gw buat??
Dan apa yang harus gw percaya???

About U, ME & US

Lastnite we talked a lot...
about us
about our parent
about our family
about our culture
and
about our (will be) wedding

Talk about the last one made our head head-ache
ternyata...
bahkan untuk mikirin aja ttg perkawinan antar bangsa bikin kepala pusing 7 keliling...
many question in our mind...
the question end with..."Where we will carry out our wedding?"

It's easy 2 just thinking but it wasn't that easy...
Sometime i gave up...& feeling really sad...coz...
Finally i had someone who really love me & i love him in return...but
wasn't that easy 2 make us to be together forever...

God! Just Help me...
Help us!...


PS: I LOVE U my one & only

TV

My best friend since i lived in this country...
which always accompany me when nobody want to accompany me...was dead!!!
Aaaaaaaaaagh...
My TV, dunno why, without any reason...couldn't ON...!!!
& this TV's out of order when I'll really need it...
the whole of June...coz
EURO'08 will come soon
& I was so damn waiting for that!!!
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh...
Huhuhuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...

dan...lagi...

Hari ini,
Tuhan m'beriku cinta yang indah
Kemaren juga,
dan kemaren juga...dan
Kemaren saat akhirnya aku m'nemukanmu

Cinta ini begitu indah
dan begitu sempurna

Tuhan,
akankah aku masih m'miliki cinta ini besok?
besoknya lagi...?
dan besoknya lagi...
dan besoknya lagi...
dan besoknya lagi...
dan besoknya lagi...
dan besoknya lagi...
???

PS: I LOVE U

Lastnite

Lastnite

U said:
"Cinta tidak untuk diucapkan,
tapi untuk diungkapkan dengan perbuatan"

:)
I know that,
n I know U
I thankful for that

PS: I Love U (bcoz its me) :)